Star Wars Advance Ticket

Star wars, a famous movie growing together with most of the man. This morning, I was reading news from a digital portal as usual. I saw a title  "You may start your day with Star Wars: The Force Awakens (2015) now!", I was extremely excited and wanted to run to cinema immediately.

I gave myself a plan, queue overnight at cinema to purchase advance ticket. "Woo! Smart move!" I whispering. And partner wise, of course is the desired girl who I fall in love. Her name is Hebe. I'm knowing her since a year ago, in a coffee shop. She was crying that time, due to dead of her dog. Don't make conclusion yet! Our relationship still maintaining as GOOD FRIEND until now.

I'm so happy today, time flies speedy. Very fast, it's after work. I get my car quickly and drive to cinema. 5 hours more for advance ticket starting. I'm shocking at the first scene I saw! There're more than 400 people queuing! OMG!!! "Nevermind! That's still a chance." I'm telling myself positively.

After 10 hours of queued, finally my turn. "Sorry sir, we have 1 ticket left only. Do you want to proceed?" said by counter sales person. Grey cloud growing around me, rain started, and thunderstorm booming. The land of the Earth is cracking and splitting to 2 pieces. It's my feeling now! Why the world is so cruel to me! I bought the-only-one ticket first, then only think of solution for the other ticket. I ran out. I begged to every single person there like a crazy human for the ticket.

3 hours passed, finally that's a person want to give away his ticket due to broke up with her girlfriend. YES! Grey cloud is disabling, sun rising, and the land of green appearing slowly. It's my current feeling. I called Hebe immediately.

"Hello, Hebe?" greet by me. "Yes, whatsup?" replied by Hebe. "Do you free to watch Star Wars with me in this coming Saturday?" asking nervously by me. She silent for a moment. "I want to tell you something..." she stopped. Sound serious. What she want to tell me? Please, please not saying leaving the country to far-far-land. "I hate Star Wars movie!!! So hate it! It causing the dead of my dog 1 year ago. The day was the first day of Star Wars screening, I was so excited to queue for the ticket and forgot to feed him. He was starve to death!" she is crying.

At this moment, I see darkness only. I'm tired but also feel sorry to her. She didn't reply any of my message since that day. After few months, only I found out she dead. She suicide because she was too sad of her dog. I...I.....


P/S: My sepian kaki, please do research before action!

Married Man

My name is Kavin, late 40, a married man who working as engineer in a steel reproduce factory for more than 20 years. I used to be a top performance continuously. But, since 5 years ago, the legend is ended due to my marriage. Previously, people keep talking about no life after married, and I still believe it will only happen to other people when the time I'm still single. But I'm wrong. I was spending every single seconds with my family now. But, I was keep telling myself, I have a lovely wife and I'm in happiness. Happiness?... I thought. Recently, I'm thinking repeatly, retaining in the same position for years, am I doing the right decision in the beginning stage before I married.

Today, I met a junior of mine named Joe who worked with me. He left 10 years ago. I used to called him stupid minion. But, he is different now. He is smart and rich. "How do you do, Kavin? Still working in the same company?" say Joe. I'm silent for seconds and replied "Yes.". "I'm CEO of automobile company now, join me if you interested, I'm still found you are the best engineer I ever met." say Joe again. I'm smile as replying. He in rush, he passed a name card and left.

Tonight is the tougher night ever, staring at the ceiling for 3 hours and cannot sleep. Do I make a right choice to be married man so early? The afternoon scene keep kicking me. Middle age crisis is a killer to most of the aged-40s man. They can overthink for a small reason or easily trigger by some old memory. The feeling is just like you are old but you still have 30 years more to go and cannot take any risk.

I'm walking to the window, looking at the moon. Talking to the moon, for 2 hours. And it doesn't change anything for the rest of my life...

P/S: My sepian fellows, think twice before action.